I sat down today with the intention of writing about something uplifting. This morning it was cool, so I went for a long walk with my son up to the campus of the college where I teach. Along the way, we saw families of deer, the college grounds crew weed-whacking around the foundations of the buildings, students walking groggily to their first classes of the semester. After a long sweltering summer, fall is creeping in. However, it was difficult for me to be present, focused on the beauty around me. The order of a new school year, which usually reassures and excites me, was overshadowed by…